Freshman Year Reflection .

Before high school I was a little up tight. I was like the girl who was called a " goodie goodie two shoes." I was responsible, well-mannered, smart, and caring. I was only concerned about my education and everything fell into place after that. I was very family oriented so I spent a lot of time with my family and a couple friends as well. I don't mean to sound cocky but you could really say I was perfect and my life was as well. Now I would describe myself as fun, adventurous, kind, selfish, and easy going. In high school I think I loosened up a little bit more. I think in high school I became a little more self-absorbed. In high school I developed a mentality that I was the only person that I had in this world and that I have to look out for myself and no one else. For example before when my one of my friends or family needed help or assistance with something I would help them. But I stopped that because in the end they wouldn't do the same for me. And I guess you could say it was no more Mr. Nice girl. In high school I went through a dramatic change. My parents got a divorce and now I live with my father. The reason they are no longer together is because my mother cheated on my father. This change was very hurtful towards me. It made me look at life differently. This affected me in a bad way. I hated the fact that the families were split up mainly because I hate change! I felt as though my mother was being extremely selfish. My mother showed me a side of her that I'd never seen before. The whole thing didn’t make any sense to me. A two-parent household was all I knew of. I grew up in a family of 5 so that was just what I was used to. Now I live in an apartment with me and my father who is actually currently engaged to another woman. I mean can you believe divorced and marrying again all in 1 year! The whole situation is confusing. Oh and don't forget about parent and family members making you choose sides. It was all a horrible nightmare. This situation made me careless. I figured if everybody’s going to do what they want to do then why can't I? I began to only care about myself and I became heartless.